This is hands down one of the most difficult monologues I have conducted. Please keep your minds and souls open.
Hi I'm Nikita and I suffer from Anxiety, Depression and Insomnia.
I felt a strong urge to document this a long time ago and it basically became the backbone of my writing, this website and my evolving work ethic.
You never believe you would obtain these labels, until you have to accept the fact that your stubborn butt may need some help.
I have said and will repeat in writing that I am NOT a doctor, therapist or mental health expert. I simply know what I have experienced, done to deal with it and what I have been told/read. I am still learning, as I'm sure millions of people everyday are, about myself, how to overcome these battles and with whom to share what information.
I may have been candid in this video - more so than I think I have ever been - but it is purely to help others. I felt alone, misunderstood and frustrated with myself for such a long time. I didn't understand why others weren't understanding me, playing down my emotions or making me feel incapable.
You are allowed to be down sometimes. It is okay to be insecure. It is normal to feel sensitive and afraid and not yourself some days. You're human!
I bring this video to you, as the start of many, just to explain the very surface of the past 2 years of my life. Please be aware that so many other people share my problems and that there is always more than you know to the people you may think you know so well.
I ask you please be kind to one another, notice signs in unhappy people, be a good friend... be a good person - help one another. Guide one another. Love one another.
Thank you for listening to my story. Thank you to my parents and two best friends, A.C.K and J.J, for being so supportive and loving.
Thank you and love to God for putting me on this Earth and giving me the strength to walk it.